So I explained in, quite some detail, why I started writing this blog. It seemed like I was a good engineering manager, but I couldn’t work out why. I felt I needed to understand what I knew, what I believed in, and what made me a good leader.
Writing is a process that helps me think, being dyslexic it takes me a lot of effort to write stuff down, so I have to be intentional and considered, it helps me align my thoughts.
At the end of it, I felt I had some stuff to share. So I did.
I grew strong.
About two years ago, I started on a crazy journey. Due to a combination of Klarna’s crazy growth, me convincing some senior leads to trust me, and I guess showing some element of competence on my part, I went from being responsible for one team to being a manager of managers and responsible for around 6 teams within a couple of months.
I stopped writing, at the time I assumed it was just because I was super busy with my new responsibilities. However, I now realise it wasn’t due to this, it was more to do with the fact I had switched modes.
I learned how to be a lead.
I was no longer in an ‘I think I’m good at this, and I should share my knowledge to help people get better, output!’ to ‘oh fuck, I have no idea what’s going on, must learn, input!’ mode.
Sharing knowledge just wasn’t high up on the list of things that I had the energy to invest in.
But Now I’m Back, from Input space.
I’m now in a similar situation as before, unlike when I started writing as a team lead I don’t know that I’m a good group/senior lead. However, I have been given the opportunity to take up an awesome role at the beginning of next year and in preparation for that, I really want to get my thoughts aligned and thought I might as well share as I go.
Don’t I just sit there with that sad look upon your face. Stick around.
I have some drafts and ideas that I will be writing about, but I can’t promise the next couple of months of articles will have any kind of constant theme (not that they did before anyway). I will be writing about:
- The perception of the competence of senior and c-suite leadership.
- Trying to work out how hybrid work is meant to work.
- The challenge around perceived intent in workplace communication
- Leading managers, and the spectacular levels of dysfunction they show.. joking… kinda
- Something around my thoughts on Bruce Daisley’s spectacular new book Fortitude (though I’m still processing this, it might just be an article with a massive headline that says ‘buy this book’)
- Expanding out my thoughts on empathy at scale that I have spoken a little bit about here and there.
- Trying to work out if my thoughts around “Punk Leadership” are utterly bat shit, or something worth spending some time on.
- Probably some stuff about how I hate Elon Musk, but that’s so mainstream now that it’s boring 😅
- Assessing some old-school business/management models to see if there is anything to learn from them in the 2020s
Additionally, if you had an interested in Hybrid working I would greatly appreciate you filling in my survey on the topic.